“Taking a new step, uttering a new word is what people fear the most.” Fyodor Dostoyevsky’
Why is this quote such a true statement? First, is fear of failure. Second, is thinking we can’t. Most of us have had this experience in some area of our life. In the last couple of blogs, I have talked about being afraid to fail. Today I going to talk about the “I can’t” part.
In some areas of my life, I can be fearless. In other areas I can get myself in a state of great anxiety. To bare my soul my biggest fear is the digital world. I do not understand it. It frustrates me, and worse yet, it has become a necessity to my art life. E-mail is great! Texting convenient. But Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter confound me. And, more and more of my art life must be done out there!
It was 20 plus years ago , that my son gave me a computer. He said, “Mom, embrace technology”! Right! That computer caused me to yell, scream, cry, and I almost threw it in Rosebay. Several computers later I know how to use a computer, write a blog on my website, use photoshop, etc. But I still cannot trouble shoot problems that arise. I am totally afraid I will lose everything, send something I should not, and mess it up to the point I cannot use it. (Been there and done that!) And lets face it, it is a necessity in today’s world. It does have great advantages. The world is at our fingertips.
I am taking an Instagram class. It confuses me. I am glad the teacher is patient. But I am slowly learning to put myself out there. Oh yes there have been a few bloopers. ☹ I get frustrated, but I am learning not to panic so often. I put it away and go back the next day. I can do this I say!
If you tell yourself, you can, at some point you will. If you tell yourself, you can’t, you never will. I probably will never be a shinning star in the digital world. The marks I make might even be a little less than stellar, but I am determined to give it a go. If you don’t try you never will know if you can.
I made a little video last week! It took me 10 days to do what should have taken 10 minutes. It wasn’t spectacular, but I was proud of myself for getting that far. It is out on Facebook and Instagram. I am having a devil of a time making a second, and still do not get how it works. But I am abating my fear and going to keep at it.
The message here is, trying new things is important to our growth, even if they cause us anxiety and discomfort. Many artists get comfortable in what they do and never try to go the one step further. Now that is an area in which I am fearless. If it fails, so what? It’s a do over. It is part of the learning process. That is my fearless and happy place!
We each need to trust that still small voice that says, “this might work, and I’ll try it”. It takes courage to do something that causes us anxiety or makes us uncomfortable, but sometimes it is worth taking the chance. We just must take baby steps. Thinking a particular thought can have enormous impact on our world of action. So let’s make our thoughts positive.
Check me out on Facebook and Instagram. Perceptions by cALand or Carolyn Reid Land. I am trying to overcome my digital fears. You can follow my growth! And yes, there will be more bloopers but I will continue until I grow!
Stay safe. Carolyn